41 Little Deaths Little Delights

Lordy, Lordy, Jan is certainly forty. This is what mid 20s feel to me.

East

Once you've rinsed clean
we drive Oeste with my hands
up and over, wondering
This and that about
the mountain formations
the calcium levels
the ghosts and
especially
Why I am doing what I am
How hard it'd be
to lose someone like you
Or this can of beer
And in this skew we're passing
a set of pastel castles in dirt
Dry greenery
A merry-go-round
And it's all empty
too big to be overgrown
So I cry
and we stare
at it and we pretend
I'm not feeling much anything
at all

・゜゜・．

My partner asked me late last night, unsolicited, I think my heart just stopped. Do you think you're reincarnated? I said, Oh please let it beat yet still. This is something that has troubled me for many years. This is something that has troubled me for many years, I say, I think I am a relatively spiritual person in my own divine ways, and through that, I feel as though I should or would identify with a past life. But I don't. But I don't, I said, I don't feel very new, though. I wish so differently for myself. So I think, maybe, just maybe, a life I held before was related to nature. Then my best friend messaged me, I hate when I can hear a roommate crying from the next room. I don't know. It's not easy to keep both your mind and heart open simultaneously. Everything is new to me, I say, and the Universe says, Everything is new for you.

・゜゜・．

LITTLE DEATHS
- The week passing before you know it :(
- Partiful? Somehow still social media
- Fear of flossing. Get on the boat or drown, toothless

LITTLE DELIGHTS
- The week passing before you know it :)
- Sugar deposits. A sweet treat at the end of a long day, at the end of a short day, at the end of your wits.
- Colleen. My favorite composer.

With burning loins,
Mar Wolf